GOOD BYE HATER

I feel like I could just scream. How could someone treat a friend the way I feel like I have been treated for a long time now. I just can be friends with this person anymore. But they really never have been a friend, not for a long time now. I guess I could be getting hurt feelings when nothing was really ment by it. I usually get hurt easy. But enough is enough. You can only forgive someone so many times right? We are even taught that if someone hurts you you should forgive. Right? and then after the third time you should turn the other cheek. We are way past the third time and I keep forgiving. WHY do I put myself though a friendship like that? Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me. Well I am done being a fool. I keep hoping that I will some how feel the same way I used to and want to be friends and they would too but I just don't think it is going to happen. And I am ready to move on.

Tim

Yesterday I starting signing the song "one girl one boy" you know all know how it goes..."One Boy, one girl two hearts beating wildly to put it mildly it was love at first sight. He smiled she smiled and they knew right away this was the day they've waited for all their lives. For a moment the whole world...." anyway So I changed up a few things and said One Tim one Tesha and when it got to the part where it said love at first sight Tim said "at least it was for me." Which in his case is actually true. He liked me from the moment he met me. So I asked him not fully thinking how true it was "How do you like loving me for half you life already?" Then I thought about it later and it's true. We met in 6th grade 12 years. It amazes me that he has loved me that long and amazes me that he will spend most of his life loving me. Then after that we have the rest of eternity together. It's crazy to think about. Tim has been a great person in my life in all stages of our relationship, friendship, dating, being engaged, marriage. He has been the most constant person (outside of my family) in my life. He has been the one person that has always been there for me. He is one of the only people I compeletly trust. It is nice to have someone I can trust with anything and trust with everything. I have lost a lot of close friend. Although I may still be in contact with them. They don't want to be close to me. For along time I would beat myself up that I didn't have a best friend. Someone I could go to for anything but I have had one all along. When everyone else has hated me Tim never has. When I came out of an abusive relationship he was there. Through thick and thim he has never judged me. When most people would have. If something happens and our plans get canecelled he rolls with the punches. He puts up with my mood swings and my over protective parenting. (Yes I am admitting it leave it at that and don't rub it in). I feel like I am the smartest person in the world for choosing him to be my husband. When people around him are doing stupid stuff he doesn't. On the rigs he could of gained a bad habbit. But instead he read the book of Mormon and decided that he wouldn't sware so he could be and example to others. When family members start getting into bad habbits he gets mad and thinks they are stupid. Although he still loves them he really hates there chocies. When he was in training for the air force he would go out with all his buddies. They would all get smashed but Tim wouldn't even have a single drink. He gets up at 4:45 M-T is gone 12hrs (includes travel time) just to support his family. He has strong family ties and he know that is whats the most important thing in life. Whenever I am sad or mad he always finds away to make to laugh or smile. There are some days that i think he is a big kid and he gets annoying. But I can't get enough of him. He is my once in a life time find and i love him more than anything. I am excited to be able to say I have loved him most of my life time like he can me. I want to show him and give him in return the love he has always given me. TRUE LOVE!!! I just wanted him to know publicly how much everything means to me. How right now I don't see how life could get any better because he loves me and that will never change. I love you Tim!!

Trezdons Hair Cut

For some reason I have treated Trezdon more like a baby then I did with Trace. I think it is because he is going to be the baby for a while. I think that is why I didn't want to cut his hair. I didn't want him to grow up.Plus I didn't want to loose his super cute curls. Everyone loves his hair. I loved his hair. I also thought that if I did I would want another baby because he would be a toddler. But at the spare of the moment I decided that I'd better just get it cut. I was getting a little to long. I was super excited that my sister trimmed it enough that it's not crazy long the best part is he trimmed it so he still has his curls!!! He looks so much better. I will down load some pictures tomorrow the back doesn't look too different which I like you can mostly tell the difference on his sides.