:) Fall Madness!

Their is so much to catch up on....
Fall of course began out with Trezdons Birthday. His favorite song now is Happy Birthday. He loved everyone singing to him. You can tell he felt special. I worked my butt off on a homemade pintia that everyone loved. Now all the kids in the family want them at their Birthday parties.

Then trick or treating it turned out to be an weekend event instead of one day. We had trick or treating on main in Springville on Friday. Then Saturday trick or treating on Main in SF, Trunk or Treating in Woodland Hills, Sis's Halloween party, then grandparents. On Sunday we stopped at my grandmas because we missed her the day before. It was crazy. The kids where super cute this year. Trace was the "Black Spider Man" and Trezy was a skeleton. It was Fun!

Family Up date

It is hard to believe how much time has flew by and I have not written a word about anything in months. So much has happen in our crazy lives it is hard to find a place to start. But I will sum up what has happened lately or going to happen starting from the oldest in our family to the smallest.


Tim what an amazing guy!! He is working so hard for us that we hardly see him anymore. Right now he is working a full time job and going to school full time. He leaves home around 4:30 AM and comes home at 11PM. By time he gets things ready for the next day he gets about 4 hrs of sleep. I am very impressed with the way he is balancing everything so far he has done amazing in school. He has passed all of his quizzes so far and is always on top of his homework. I am so proud of him. He is going to Utah of Message Therapy for two reasons. Number one if anything this is a great part time job for Tim if we need a little extra money. But the sweetest thing is he is doing it for me and all my problems. (scoliosis tendinitis). It is going to be a long long year but hopefully it goes by fast.
Tim is also turing a quarter or a century old next Sunday. I need to start planning his party. It won't be big just cake and ice cream so if you want to come let me know. lol he always feels so old on his birthday. lol I am a week younger than him and I still feel like a pup! 25 doesn't bug me. I am still young and I am going to enjoy that. I am going to try and convince Tim of that too.

Me-I am still an stay at home mom. But as soon as Tim is off school I am thinking about getting a part time job or going back to school myself. But I am enjoying getting to be with our boys during the day.
Just about a week and a half ago I suffered from a miscarrage. I wasn't very far along and I was surprised how hard it was. I think most of the shock has worn off. I still have time where I am sad but I know I am truly bless to have Trace and Trezdon. My little angels. I also learned who really cares about me. I am so lucky to have support from some of my friends family and the one and only person in my ward that knows. I seriously don't know what I would do with out all of them. Thank You Everyone. We are planning to try again although I want to make sure I am ready. Just in case something happened again. The Dr. told us if we are going to try that we should wait until after two periods. Part of me really wants to try and the other is scared to. So with time we will see what happens. I diff. feel for those who have had miscarriages. A lot of people have multiple miscarriages this scares me that I could be one of those people. I will make sure to keep everyone up dated when we do start trying again.

Trace- I was so excited to find him a preschool. I found on in Spanish Fork. A little pain to drive but it just felt right. We went to meet his teacher on Friday and look at his class room. I will never forget the look on his face. He was so excited but shy at the same time, he smile and there was something about the look in his eyes that was like I can't wait. I keep trying to tell him the four people that can pick him up is me, Tim and my parents if anyone else tries to say sorry your not my mom then run to his teacher. I hope it works. I am also pretty nervous that he is going to have a hard time not being around mom and me leaving him. But I realize in order for him to grow socially I need to do this. He is still young and could really wait until next year I feel like it is the best thing to do. Although the other day I did feel a little sad that maybe I am forcing him to grow up to fast. And I was going to miss not having him around during that 3 short hours. Lol I know funny right. But I am excited to know I won't be very far because my sister in law lives in the same area as his school and my mom in the same town so I won't be far during those times. I am really excited for him.

Trezdon holy cow my tazmainen devil. I really never understood parents who had a hard time with their kids getting into everything because Trace was so easy and never really cared. But now that Trezy knows how to open things he gets into trouble. He tries to go outside (scary bc of the road we live on) he opened a draw in my closet with my nail polish and opened and played in them. He is always in the fridge getting cheese. lol it is funny at times. I just think he is so smart! Do you want to know the best thing about him being this way......? He is potty training himself. Yeah you heard right. If anyone says bathroom or pee he is pulling down his paints, taking off his diaper throwing it away and peeing and pooping in his little potty. And he is talking like mad!! It was so cute when Trace was playing Mario Cart the other day one of the guys laughed and Trezy copied and said I ama gonna win! lol He is always going around telling everyone he is skinny, or he tries to say he is someone else. I can diff. see that having a big brother close to the same age helps. He is always trying to keep up with him.

Well that is our smallish update hope you enjoyed. As for me it is 11:42 I am headed to bed for the night. The long day starts up again tomorrow.

update.on.Tim

I.think.tonight.is.one.of.the.worst.nights.with.Tim.being.gone.I.really.miss.him.a.lot.
I.can't.wait.to.see.him.But.I.think.this.is.a.really.good.experience.for.him.in.our.3-5min.
conversations.a.day.he.has.told.me.about.the.beauty.of.the.land.and.snake.charmers
covering.him.in.snakes.,.a.really.awesome.wall.build.to.act.like.a.fort,.and.his.goat.catching
not.to.mention.the.place.they.are.saying.at.with.pools.but.we.really.can't.go.into.details.about
that.lol.I.can't.wait.until.he.comes.home.and.is.able.to.show.me.pictures.and.actually.talk.to.me
as.long.as.I.want.sigh......If.only.I.can.speed.up.time!

Tim

So.Tim.has.been.gone.2.1/2.days.now.just.my.luck.my.throat.starts.to.hurt.and.I.am.really.tired.
but.there.really.isn't.much.I.can.do.about.it.I.have.kids.to.watch.ugh...I.just.want.to.sleep.It's.
Saturday.and.Tim.normally.would.be.home.so.I.could.just.rest.oh.wouldn't.that.me.nice!!.I.really
miss.him.today.and.all.the.help.he.is.with.the.kids.when.I.am.sick.But.I.have.been.sick.when.he.has.
been.gone.before.so.I.know.I.can.do.it!
So.the.update.on.Tim.......Good.question.all.I.know.is.he.made.it.there.safe.we.really.haven't.been.able
to.talk.but.once.I.know.something.I.will.let.you.all.know.

My First Diaper Cake

Before addtional deco addedAfter deco added


It was a lot easier than I thought it would be to make. I was shocked that people would pay as much as they do at Quited Bear.

Here is the break down

White Cloud diapers (can't find anymore where bought out someone must have returned them at walmart) I got a pk for just .10 wow
then I bought a pk of 42 diapers for $5.00 (didn't use all of them and gave the remaining ones to sis)
Ribbon $5.00 (still have a lot more left over)
Blinks's $2.00 (for two)
Giraffe Tupperware $1.00
small elephant book $ 1.00
a bottle .97
baby shampoo $2.00
baby spoons $1.00 (f0r two)
additional deco probably adds up to be about .50

Making my diaper cake total .....$18.57

I think you could do it even cheaper than that with buying cheaper ribbon or making two layers and not three. I think you could get away with making this out of only one pk of diapers. I was just so lucky how cheap I got the white clouds for. The best part is my sister in law loves white cloud diapers and was so upset that it went out of business. It was prefect because the diapers had jungle an mails on it. Which was both her shower theme and nursery theme so the cake made a great center piece.

Apron Project

I am so excited about this project I can hardly wait to get started. I just got done looking at so many different ideas I think I may end up making more than one!! I guess this will be a good thing come birthdays showers or Christmas gifts. But I might get greedy and keep them all to myself. But every cook wants and needs more than one anyways right?

I have found sites that tell you step by step how to make them. I am currently putting them on here. You can make Aprons out of anything old dresses, old Levis and pillow cases. I think i want to try a little of each!!!

Honestly it is going to coast me a lot less making my own then going to flirty aprons in the mall and buying one. I have thought about buying patterns much like this or just free handing it or doing what I did for my sister. I bought and apron body for $5 at Walmart and bought some material and rick rack and added my own details. I recovered the pocket in a patter en material made a ruffle and the top and bottom with the same material then accented it all with Rik rack So not the best picture but I hope you get the idea. She choose out the color,and the material on the bottom. There are a few things that I might do different to mine. Like I would choose a red body and I would shorten the length. I am thinking big floral and polka dotes. Then ribbon to hold the neck and tie the back.
I am also going to add embellishments much like this super cute flower as shown up above and the sheer ruffle on the bottom.
(I can get over how much this one looks like a dress.) Anyway check out all the cool sites I found. Maybe you'll want to make one too.

Up Date

So after a being a week and two days late aunt flow made her daybew finally. So I figured that was a good thing. Now I can move on from anything thoughts that the prego test where a false neg. But for the most part after so many test you just know that there isn't a way they all could have a false neg. So now we are start to plan better lol.
So as you all know we have two boys. We loved them to death and wouldn't trade them for anything in the world. But next baby we hope to have planned and part of the planning is doing everything we can to be favorable for conceiving a girl. This includes many things mostly timing, possioning of intercourse and going on the same diet my mom went on to conceive me. I am confident it will work.
I am going to re-read a book lent to me by my sister in Law about choosing the sex of your baby. This is the same book she used almost 9m ago now (as she will be having her baby soon) when she was trying to conceive a boy. I bet you can''t guess what she is having? lol
I am really excited to see if it works. But if it doesn't no worries. I welcome any child into my life that god trust me with. Boy or Girl!
I think when you are planning to have a child you should plan for either way. You can not have an unhealthy attitude ab0ut it and if you do I wouldn't suggest following what this book or any book says.
I will keep everyone but dated on when we actually start trying. Right now is when I need to start pin pointing my day of ovulation better and chart it. I am going to get a couple of months worth of that. Because like I said it's all about timing.
Anyway for right now I am glad that I am not prego thanks to natures natural way of telling me! :)

All test show neg.

So super confused! No period yet. Day 3 after missed period. I have taken several test that turn up negative. I think I just need to stop worrying it could be nothing but stress and worrying about if I am prego that has made me miss so much. I think the most confusing part is having symptoms that started about two weeks ago. I think that I have mentioned them before. But just in case i didn't here they are again lol:

Light Headed
Head Aches
Lower Back pain
nausea
tender/ sore boobies
period like cramping
moody
constipation
Late Period
And just a feeling/thinking I was with out any doubt.
My parents feeling I was without saying something until I played an April fools joke that I was lol (Both probably don't count)


That about sums it up. You have to realize that I am regular. So this is so strange for me to be three days late. And strange to think that it could be a false neg. when with both my kids they showed poss. right away. I guess it could still happen. Just hard to believe after I have taken so many test. I figure it I don't have it by Friday (that would make me a week late) I will test again. But I might just go straight to the doctors for a blood test. I feel like I have wasted so much money on stupid test and a blood test I would know for sure. So we will see. Keep reading for updates for now I guess. Between now and then I am going to try not to think about it and stress about it then my period will probably come.

Getting Prego? Changing my mind everyday.

Today I just don't see it happening. I am going back to wanting to wait again. I am always up and down about the subject. But Trezy still acts so much like a baby and I just want to enjoy him at the stage he is in. When Trace was his age I was always sick. (Being prego at the time). I remember feeling that he was still a baby and although I was excited to have another I was said to realize he was no longer going to be the baby.
I am not sure how long I will or can keep Trezy the baby. He is growing so fast. But he still cuddles, sleeps in a crib and sucks his two middle fingers. lol He is so funny. And I if I really am starting to get baby hungry I have babies in my family and a soon to be nephew on the way which I can't wait for. So needless to say I don't need one right now!! lol :) Lets see what tomorrow brings lol

Baby Drama

So lately I having been feeling very prego. I have had back aches , headaches, cramps , breast tenderness , extra cm and of course I felt sick. But I took a test today (I think I should have my period Friday or Sat.) and it was negative. That means I am off the hook right? Tim thinks I just took it to early. I don’t. The funny thing is I was sure that I was. I really didn’t want to be but part of me was growing with the idea so I pulled out all the things I have saved for a little girl out just to look. Looked at car seats and diaper bags lol. I got carried away. Last night I was getting nervous that I could actually be prego and it was freaking me out. I don’t know how I would do it I thought to myself. But I kept having dreams that the test would be positive and how excited Tim and I were. I really woke up at 3 thinking it was later in the day last night so I could test. First I woke at 3the at 5 and finally took it at 7 but every time in between the same dream came back another thing that made me think it must me so. I was actually shocked that I was a little disappointed that I wasn’t having another.

So now I am not sure how to feel. I think it’s more of a bitter sweet thing. I would have welcomed and loved another child but I want to do a few things before I have another baby. Nothing that I can’t do in a few short months. So I am going to start studying up again on ways to have a girl. And possibly toy with the idea of trying to conceive in June July or Aug that way I have a Spring baby. I am leaning more June and July because I could probably have the baby before allergies season is in full force. (It’s so odd but I might change my mind and wait another year like I have been planning since I had Trezdon.)

So my sister in law read a book to help her conceive a little boy which she will be having in just a few short weeks. So I have read it twice and I am going to read it again and start doing the things in there that I need to do before I even start trying. Then I am also going to go on the same diet my mom went on to conceive me after she had three boys. I always joke that I am the experiment baby. Lol really that is what I am.

Don’t worry if I end up conceiving a boy I will be happy. I wouldn’t trade my two boys for anything in the world. I love them so much. I think anyone who is trying to have a baby should keep that in mind that things can go either way .

Anyway I am sure I will write a blog if I actually do start trying right now it’s just a thought. As for all the pains I was getting and still getting maybe it was just a long drawn out thing of PMS. I guess you can always get a false neg. but I doubt that this is the case. I guess I will know for sureFriday or Sat.

GOOD BYE HATER

I feel like I could just scream. How could someone treat a friend the way I feel like I have been treated for a long time now. I just can be friends with this person anymore. But they really never have been a friend, not for a long time now. I guess I could be getting hurt feelings when nothing was really ment by it. I usually get hurt easy. But enough is enough. You can only forgive someone so many times right? We are even taught that if someone hurts you you should forgive. Right? and then after the third time you should turn the other cheek. We are way past the third time and I keep forgiving. WHY do I put myself though a friendship like that? Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me. Well I am done being a fool. I keep hoping that I will some how feel the same way I used to and want to be friends and they would too but I just don't think it is going to happen. And I am ready to move on.

Tim

Yesterday I starting signing the song "one girl one boy" you know all know how it goes..."One Boy, one girl two hearts beating wildly to put it mildly it was love at first sight. He smiled she smiled and they knew right away this was the day they've waited for all their lives. For a moment the whole world...." anyway So I changed up a few things and said One Tim one Tesha and when it got to the part where it said love at first sight Tim said "at least it was for me." Which in his case is actually true. He liked me from the moment he met me. So I asked him not fully thinking how true it was "How do you like loving me for half you life already?" Then I thought about it later and it's true. We met in 6th grade 12 years. It amazes me that he has loved me that long and amazes me that he will spend most of his life loving me. Then after that we have the rest of eternity together. It's crazy to think about. Tim has been a great person in my life in all stages of our relationship, friendship, dating, being engaged, marriage. He has been the most constant person (outside of my family) in my life. He has been the one person that has always been there for me. He is one of the only people I compeletly trust. It is nice to have someone I can trust with anything and trust with everything. I have lost a lot of close friend. Although I may still be in contact with them. They don't want to be close to me. For along time I would beat myself up that I didn't have a best friend. Someone I could go to for anything but I have had one all along. When everyone else has hated me Tim never has. When I came out of an abusive relationship he was there. Through thick and thim he has never judged me. When most people would have. If something happens and our plans get canecelled he rolls with the punches. He puts up with my mood swings and my over protective parenting. (Yes I am admitting it leave it at that and don't rub it in). I feel like I am the smartest person in the world for choosing him to be my husband. When people around him are doing stupid stuff he doesn't. On the rigs he could of gained a bad habbit. But instead he read the book of Mormon and decided that he wouldn't sware so he could be and example to others. When family members start getting into bad habbits he gets mad and thinks they are stupid. Although he still loves them he really hates there chocies. When he was in training for the air force he would go out with all his buddies. They would all get smashed but Tim wouldn't even have a single drink. He gets up at 4:45 M-T is gone 12hrs (includes travel time) just to support his family. He has strong family ties and he know that is whats the most important thing in life. Whenever I am sad or mad he always finds away to make to laugh or smile. There are some days that i think he is a big kid and he gets annoying. But I can't get enough of him. He is my once in a life time find and i love him more than anything. I am excited to be able to say I have loved him most of my life time like he can me. I want to show him and give him in return the love he has always given me. TRUE LOVE!!! I just wanted him to know publicly how much everything means to me. How right now I don't see how life could get any better because he loves me and that will never change. I love you Tim!!

Trezdons Hair Cut

For some reason I have treated Trezdon more like a baby then I did with Trace. I think it is because he is going to be the baby for a while. I think that is why I didn't want to cut his hair. I didn't want him to grow up.Plus I didn't want to loose his super cute curls. Everyone loves his hair. I loved his hair. I also thought that if I did I would want another baby because he would be a toddler. But at the spare of the moment I decided that I'd better just get it cut. I was getting a little to long. I was super excited that my sister trimmed it enough that it's not crazy long the best part is he trimmed it so he still has his curls!!! He looks so much better. I will down load some pictures tomorrow the back doesn't look too different which I like you can mostly tell the difference on his sides.